Ever since I found out I will be going back to US again, I have been mentally planning a list of travel essentials needed for this trip (honestly, it’s just my outfits. But hey..clothes are part of essential stuff to bring too). Trying out my different outfits, it finally dawned on me – I’m leaving in just 4 days.
This will be my third time in the US. Like they say third time’s a charm. Well I say… first, second, third, fourth etc will always be a charm to even be able to travel back again. However, I feel this trip will be extremely different from the past two trips. The previous trips, I would grab the opportunity to travel without thinking twice just to get out of Singapore – my problems. I am in a much better place compared to the previous trips. This time, I really searched myself and asked God if I was meant to go on this trip. I mean to begin with, I was so blessed to travel not once but twice to the States. I didn’t want to be unsatisfied or people to think so. So I prayed and told God if it’s truly Your will, the tickets will have to be way cheaper.
The next thing you know my mom found tickets for two that were extremely cheap, it was almost equivalent to the ticket of one. I knew then and there it was a God thing!
However, I still did struggle with the thought of going and I think God knew. My dad came over and prayed for me one Sunday service, “ I don’t know why but God’s going to do something special for you on this trip.”
And just recently, Sis Shalm came up to me and told me, “this trip will be different because you’re in a better place and you’ve made up your mind.”
Just writing this now, I realise thrice the charm and three confirmations. God never fails to amaze me. Yes, there’s a part of me that wants to clamp down any expectations in case I get disappointed. But there’s a bigger part of me that is crying out for God to reveal Himself to me and His plans for me.
Jer. 29:11 (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”